Boyfriend has been sick since early Sunday night… Now he is feeling better but guess who is starting to feel some symptoms? That’s right. Me. Even though the night before last I slept on the couch since he was feverish and stuff. Ugh.

I hope I’m feeling better tomorrow so I don’t have to call in to work… I called in 2 weeks ago and so I don’t want them to think ill of me. Especially when I am going to be telling them that I go back to school in a month and will need to be taken off the schedule and that I won’t be back until AT LEAST spring break, but probably not til summer IF I come back…

Fuuuuuuuuuuu.

And now I’m light-headed. Ugh. And I need to do laundry.

Today sucks.

But at least my school shit has been taken care of and I know that I have enough financial aid for everything. I just have to reregister on Tuesday. So… that’s nice.

Anyway… gonna go take medicine and try not to die…

Sexiness attempt #2= SUCCESS! :D

now for cheese sticks…

Gonna try to be sexy for Boyfriend tonight…

I’m probably gonna look like a fool…

IT’S BOYFRIEND’S BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!!!!!!

He is 25. My birthday is in 18 days. I will be 25 also. Woah. I feel old…

Anyway… I work 1-5 and then we are going to Big Bowl for dinner, and I am so excited for it. :) His big present won’t be here for like a month so I’m gonna get him something small from work today, but I don’t know what yet. :/ Ah, well. I’ll figure it out.

This is why I hate summer:

Its hot. And my boyfriend is basically a human radiator. Without AC it is near impossible to sleep next to him. The last thing I want to do is cuddle or have sex. And that sucks because I love him. It is so hot in our apartment right now that I cannot sleep. I don’t know how he’s asleep. I want to run cold water in the bath tub and try to sleep in it, but I know doing that can put my body into shock. When I get hot like this I often wonder if I’d feel cooler if I was thinner… I’m aware that its unlikely… but whales have blubber to keep them warm, right? Days like this make me want to starve myself. Which is actually OK because when I’m hot I don’t want to eat so much. Boyfriend is really fighting me on the AC thing but the thing is, he doesn’t know what its like in here during the day. And we are humans who don’t have natural fur coats growing on our bodies, I can’t imagine how the cats feel. Mostly they lay sprawled out in the middle of the floor looking at me miserably, or they lay in the bathroom which is usually cool unless the light is on. If I’m miserable, they probably feel worse. I don’t know how to approach him about this because every time I try he screams at me that he doesn’t know. He worries about the money, which yes, it is 200 bucks but that’s for rental of the unit for the summer, installation and removal at the end. And we would have gotten our moneys worth if we would have submitted the damn request when spring rolled around. I saw units going in as early as May because it was so hot here already… Its like he just doesn’t give a shit that I can’t fucking sleep like this. He knows that we rarely get any kind of breeze in our apartment. When we lived in SoBo I didn’t really complain because we got cross breezes and shit from all the windows. We don’t get anything here. And this building is so well insulated that when you’d think it was gonna cool down for the night our apartment starts warming up from the heat baking in. I know this is whiney. I know there’s people that have it a lot worse. I’m sorry I’m a wimp. But I can’t fucking sleep and I can barely eat. I fucking hate summer.

I can’t sleep. I have to be up at 8…

I keep thinking about what Amber wrote to me on her advice blog… I think she’s right. I think when we move we should get 2 bedrooms, maybe not necessarily separate beds but at least a room where I can go and be me and watch my stupid TV and laugh at tumblr without worrying if I’m disturbing him and he can play his music and games without worrying if he is disturbing me.

My ideal plan is one bedroom would be just the general bedroom. Maybe a small TV in there for when we are sick or feel like watching a movie in bed or wanna watch porn. And the bed. Maybe some storage for bed sheets and probably the dress if the closet isn’t big enough. The second bedroom I would claim, sometimes I need a closed door to feel comforted. It would have my desk and computer for homework, patterns, internetting and games. A TV (with either an apple TV or one of the xboxes (what exactly is the plural for that?) for Netflix and such… and either the bluray player or my old ps2 for movies (we’ve only got a handful of blurays right now so…) and a comfy chair for watching TV, stitching, and reading. Also a book shelf or two for my books and stuff. Maybe a bed in case I wanna sleep alone or we have company.
The living room would mainly function as his office since his stuff takes up so much space. But it would also have the couch and big TV with gaming consoles. Possibly a dining table as well if there isn’t enough room in the kitchen/no dining room. If we have cable with dvr probably the dvr would not be in there since that TV won’t be used much, and anything we’d be dvring would be for me anyway as the only shows he watches he downloads in bulk at the end of the season. This way we can choose to be together or separate. Does it sound selfish that I would be basically claiming the second bedroom? Is this a reasonable idea? I don’t even know….

Part of the reasoning of my taking the room would be the way he wants to decorate (superhero posters, framed comic books and just general nerdiness) works for both of us bit I also would really want an area that can be girly too. Is that selfish?